May I Suggest

I've been thinking a lot lately about what it means to really live in the moment. I'm still gathering my thoughts on my goals for 2019, but something I know for sure that I want to work on is practicing mindfulness. I am an over thinker, an anxious soul at times, and a semi-planner. I like schedules and lists but I also like seeing where the day goes. All that being said, I find myself thinking several moments or hours or even days ahead sometimes, and by the time I actually get to that moment or hour or day, I'm thinking about the next one that's going to happen. I miss out on so many moments by planning out the next one, and I want to be more intentional about where my thoughts are going.  I don't want to miss out on my life.

Joanna Gaines posted this on Instagram the other day, and I just loved it. It's been on my mind ever since. 

It's always been my nature to reflect on the past and linger there a while. I find myself thinking about what I will miss and how life is just moving too fast. I mean Crew is already six months old and saying "mama" (I had to throw that in there, sorry Chip). Drake will be driving in two years and off to college in four. And just like that I have found myself mourning the past but now in future tense. You see what I just did there? This whole time thing can feel like a thief if you let it. 
I'm challenging myself in this new year to live for now. The present. Taking in every breath, every sight, and sound and holding it dearly. Not thinking about how the good ol' days have passed us by or how the best is yet to come. But that right now, this very second, this is the gift. These are the days. These are the moments. And I’m gonna breathe them all in. If there's pain and sorrow, or happiness and hope, let it in and then let it out. 
I want to enjoy the now because it's the only thing we can actually embrace. I want to hold it carefully. Hold it thoughtfully. I want to rid myself of the little distractions because I have found that these are the thieves that steal our moments and rob our days. But time, time is our most precious gift.
Here's to seeing and finding the beauty, the hope and joy in the right now in 2019. And for goodness sake, let's have some fun while we’re at it! 
It's going to be a happy new year indeed. Believing that for all of us. 

Isn't that just the best? I need to condense that message somehow and hang it up on my wall. 

This whole topic of mindfulness also reminds me of a song my 8th grade teacher introduced me to. It's called May I Suggest, and it talks about living each chapter of your life as if it is the best part of your life. When I was in high school....that was the best part of my life. This newlywed life with Derek....this is the best part of my life. When we have a newborn....that will be the best part of my life. When we have teenagers and are playing the carpool game....that will be the best part of my life.

If I savor and learn from each chapter as if it is the best part of my life, by the time the end of my life rolls around, I will have really lived the best life I possibly could have. I won't have missed out on an awesome phase because I was too busy thinking about the phase that was coming up or the phase I just left. I just savored, learned, left, and continued on.

I realize this whole perspective is a lot easier said than done, and I'm sure it will take all of 2019 and all my other years to truly master. But it's something I really want to work on. I don't want to plan my life so far ahead that I forget that there are already some pretty awesome plans in place for me if I just accept and notice them. 

Here is a version of that song and a copy of those lyrics that I love:

May I suggest
May I suggest to you
May I suggest this is the best part of your life
May I suggest
This time is blessed for you
This time is blessed and shining almost blinding bright
Just turn your head
And you'll begin to see
The thousand reasons that were just beyond your sight
The reasons why
Why I suggest to you
Why I suggest this is the best part of your life
There is a world
That's been addressed to you
Addressed to you, intended only for your eyes
A secret world
Like a treasure chest to you
Of private scenes and brilliant dreams that mesmerise
A lover's trusting smile
A tiny baby's hands
The million stars that fill the turning sky at night
Oh I suggest
Oh I suggest to you
Oh I suggest this is the best part of your life
There is a hope
That's been expressed in you
The hope of seven generations, maybe more
And this is the faith
That they invest in you
It's that you'll do one better than was done before
Inside you know
Inside you understand
Inside you know what's yours to finally set right
And I suggest
And I suggest to you
And I suggest this is the best part of your life
This is a song
Comes from the west to you
Comes from the west, comes from the slowly setting sun
With a request
With a request of you
To see how very short the endless days will run
And when they're gone
And when the dark descends
Oh we'd give anything for one more hour of light
And I suggest this is the best part of your life.

Here's to the new year! And to this moment right now. I hope whenever I come back and read this again that whether I'm going through a moment of grief, sorrow, happiness, joy, or whatever, that I'm focusing on feeling it so when I let it go, I will have truly savored or learned from it.